My story – part 2 – on my own

“Do not love the world or the things of the world. If someone loves the world, then love for the Father is not in him: because all the things of the world – the desires of the old nature, the desires of the eyes, and the pretensions of life – are not from the Father but from the world. And the world is passing away, along with its desires. But whoever does God’s will remains forever.” I Yochanan [I John] 1:15-17. I was 21 and looking to get out of the “emotional black hole” that was my parent’s house that I felt was sucking the life from me. I had just started dating and was naive and emotionally/socially immature because of lack of socialization and how my mother schooled me. My father had wanted me to join the Navy but I wanted to be on my own, away from authority that I did not agree with. I was still in the medical office field but in a larger center not the family doctor’s office. I met a couple of interesting women who were doing documentaries for public television and ended up becoming friends with them and even roommates. The man I was dating used to date one of my roommates. They were all into science fiction, fantasy, literature, computers, outer space, and the supernatural – brainy and nerdy. Both of my roommates could “read people” psychically and had encounters with “ghosts/spirits” and consulted them. D’varim [Deuteronomy] 18:9-14 says plainly that these practices are detestable and an abomination. People are used by ELOHIM’S [Hebrew word for GOD and who I believe is FATHER/SON/SPIRIT] enemy and I weep over how they are used. People do not realize how much like a puppet they are in regards to how the enemy uses us all.

I know now there are no such things as ghosts or psychic phenomena or aliens, all are demonic activity. Again, ELOHIM’S Word protects us. The Bible is very clear that we are asleep until we are called for resurrection of life or judgement. That means there are NO such things as human spirits roaming the earth. Whatever story is given by men or “spirits” it is just that, a story – not true. So people who teach that we go to heaven immediately upon death are not going by ELOHIM’S Word and this sets up people to be used by the enemy. People have “visions” of a dead relative or friend that tells them about heaven or the other side and they believe these spirits instead of Scripture. I saw both my mother and father after they died and I know now it was a trick of the enemy. The only spirits out there are ELOHIM’S ministering ones or demons, not human ones, because humans are asleep after they die.

While the Bible does not talk about people on other planets or aliens, I believe that is a message in itself. I also have no doubt that both alien and psychic phenomena are demonic activity because of what I experienced. Read II Timothy 4:1-5. ELOHIM’S Word is HIS way to protect us and guide us. I go by what is in HIS word that is clear, if it is left unclear or a mystery I try not to get caught up in a trap/snare wanting knowledge unless that knowledge comes from digging into HIS Word more for revelation. People who want knowledge but seek it through voices in their heads [read your Bible, ELOHIM’S Voice was always outside of people, not within them] or “visions” [the enemy can give us visions too so how certain are you about your vision with me saying this? Did you pray and ask if the vision was from ELOHIM or did you just accept it as being from HIM during this time of great deception?] from whom they believe is: the HOLY SPIRIT, the FATHER, HIS SON, an angel/messenger [they are only MALE not female – read your Bible], Mary, saints, an alien contacting them, psychic contact with other people, whomever or whatever; all these people are doing is setting themselves up for the path of destruction because these are all lies! You do not have to believe me, pray and ask ELOHIM if this is the Truth and set your heart for wanting only the Truth and nothing else because if it is not the Truth it is not the True ELOHIM!

Read Scripture and compare translations but stay away from newer Bibles that say ELOHIM is a consciousness, a female, or genderless. If you refuse to believe that, pray and ask for the Truth. The older ones say HE is a HE, all 3 of HIM. The original words from the ancient writings say “HE”. If you have a problem with this and refuse to believe it while you lived, so that when you die and when you stand in front of HIM and find out that HE is a HE [again, all 3 of HIM – FATHER/SON/SPIRIT], and it turns out that your belief while you lived separated yourself from HIM the Truth so that you end up being in a very low place in HIS Kingdom, or outside the SET-APART [HOLY] CITY, or dead forever because of your believing a lie not the truth and living by it – how will you feel about that? Think about this and picture kicking yourself forever or being a puddle of tears forever or screaming forever. Remember, forever is a VERY LONG TIME! Do not let pride or anger or fear or ANYTHING stop you from believing what is in the Word RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES. Pray for your eyes, ears, heart, mind, all your being [which is what your soul is] to be open to the Truth and only the Truth because it says in Scripture that many have eyes, ears, hearts all closed to the Truth because they do not want HIM for who HE is!!!

Dig into it Scripture and do not allow your heart to be hardened if you find you are wrong. Being wrong and having to admit it and change is not worth losing out on the Truth forever! Pray and ask for understanding Scripture, ask for the Truth, ask for anything hidden ELOHIM wants to reveal THROUGH HIS WORD to you. Keep at this until you have a good foundation in the Word that you can use to compare to what men teach. If you wrap yourselves up in any man’s way, you will get truth and error depending on how close to ELOHIM they are in Truth and you pay the price for your choice if it was a poor one. Do not be lazy, do not believe you can’t have a relationship directly with ELOHIM yourself because Scripture says for us to do this. Scripture says many weak shepherds are leading flocks to destruction! I do not want to be destroyed, I want to live! How about you?

If there is a mystery in Scripture that can’t be revealed through the written word, let it go. It might be put there to be a proving or testing to see what we do with it. I believe ELOHIM will make all clear when we see HIM so be content that one day we will know these things directly from HIM. Remember, if it isn’t in HIS word then it is not of HIM. Do not go by people’s writings who say they know ELOHIM but add or take away from HIS Word! Scripture warns us against this to protect us. It also says that HIS truth endures to all generations – it is not outdated EVER. There is no such thing as “that doesn’t happen anymore or that doesn’t apply anymore because these are different times”, those are deceptions of the enemy.

One other item, according to Scripture, when we are raised up in the first resurrection we will be with the MESSIAH [CHRIST] in Yerushalayim [Jerusalem] while HE reigns on Mount Tziyon [Zion] for a thousand years before the final battle with evil and the 2nd resurrection. Then there will be a new heaven and a new earth and the New Yerushalayim is “coming down from heaven” and we will live with our ELOHIM forever in HIS Set-Apart [Holy] City on HIS Holy Mount Tziyon. We will NOT be in heaven with HIM, Scripture says the heavens and all in them will be folded up, we will be in the same place as during the thousand year reign except everything will be new including the city! Concerning what I have written, please read¬†Yochanan [John] 5:25-29 and 6:39-40, I Thessalonians 4:13-17, Z’kharyah [Zechariah] 8:1-8 and 14 – the whole chapter, Revelation chapters 19-21, and Mikhah [Micah] 4:7

I got deeper into science fiction/fantasy by avid reading and attending conventions. These conventions are just like many other gatherings of people whatever their hobby or interest – they are a combination of business and pleasure and the pleasure part can involve a lot of sin involving the opposite sex. While I prided myself on being a one man woman with the goal of finding someone to love and who loved me and to marry, I did costuming that at times the words slut and whore would have been appropriate to use for what I wore – see Jude 23.¬† What I know now is that any sex outside of marriage is a sin, that even lusting after someone is a sin, and that HIS word is very clear on both of these. No one should even provoke a person to lust by their words, actions, or apparel [or lack of it], and I have been doing my best to act and dress modestly and to avoid the lusts of the world since I have accepted the Truth of ELOHIM’S Word.

If I could redo my life, I would be a virgin marrying a virgin and asking ELOHIM who my husband should be. I believe there are many who think they are married but in ELOHIM’S eyes they are committing adultery by believing what men say over HIS Word. Mattityahu [Matthew] 15:8-9, “These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is useless, because they teach man-made rules as if they were doctrine.” These verses apply just as much to today as when the MESSIAH said them. See D’varim [Deuteronomy] 5:18, Mattityahu 5:27-28, I Corinthians 6:9-10 and 15-20, Galatians 5:19-21, Ephesians 5:3-5 for detail on what I wrote above. I was involved with six men to varying degrees [I believe the term “bases” in regards to sexual involvement is all sinful behavior] before I got married and I have not been sure in ELOHIM’S eyes if the man I married per men’s laws, was really my husband. I confessed and repented of all that I did that I became aware was sinful, hurtful, or unclean and HE still reveals things that are wrong to HIM as I try to not repeat past sins and errors and work on new habits and ways that are righteous in HIS eyes.

I was attracted to men who needed help, with me thinking I could be the one to help them which of course I could not. I needed help myself and from what I have seen we all do including many who thinks that they are in a good place. If you think you are in a good place and don’t need help, I encourage you to go to our FATHER in Heaven in prayer and ask HIM for the only the Truth to be in your life and for what is not the Truth to be revealed and out of your life and see what HE shows you, what starts happening or changing. I ended up being in worse places because of bad relationships and I suffered from low self-esteem, low self-worth, depression, and even illness and debt.¬† I got herpes and Epstein Barr virus from one of my boyfriends [I found out later he lied to me about knowing he had them and he didn’t tell others he was involved with either] with the end result of throwing my body into chronic fatigue syndrome.

I suffered much physically and emotionally, and lost a lot of time and money because of how ill I was, and ended up in more debt. I found others that had gotten STD’s from sexual partners because they had not been told by their partner what they carried before they got involved with them. We all are responsible for what we say and do and one day we will be facing our MAKER and have to account for everything that has not been confessed and repented and made right, for everything that we did not walk rightly in if we continued in our old ways after accepting the MESSIAH’S Covenant. I also believe that if we do things that harm other people we need to ask for their forgiveness and try to make amends. Scripture even says that whatever you take/steal from others should be returned with 20% added. As I said in part 1, I was blessed that ELOHIM got me in touch with those I did wrong by so I could make amends and with those who wronged me so I could forgive them. “…do to others as you would have them do to you…”, Mattityahu 7:12. From what I have experienced and what is written in Scripture, the sins you hurt others by are visited on you. I encourage you to examine your life especially when you have suffered or been used and go to Our ABBA in Heaven in prayer and ask HIM to bring to mind, to show you, why they happened. See 1 Yochanan 1:5-10 and 2 Kefa [Peter] 1:1-11.

To be continued in part 3…